Well despite my best efforts I will almost certainly be hospitalized monday or wednesday this week. I hate it though because it hasnt even been 4 months since the last one. Its hard to explain but pretty much everything is MUCH worse since tuesday 7/5 and wednesday 7/6 when I saw my T and Pdoc and they BOTH sounded like they were going to put me in then. I dont want it and it is horrifying that Im going back so soon. I will talk to T on the phone monday and either she will just tell me to go home or to come in and see her that day or she will let me wait till my actual appt on wednesday. It just depends on how the conversation goes. I hate this!! I hate me!!! I hate depression!!!! Sorry I am just crying like a scared little baby right now.