Lexicon look around the pages of this forum...you are something...you are a beacon dear lady...I know all about feelings of worthlessness, and self hatred...40 some years of it...but I find solice in loving, caring people such as yourself to keep me at least a little objective...your replies to my insanity and to others have given me such hope that I will one day be able to look in the mirror and say...MY FRIEND...I thankyou so much for being you...