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Sky, thanks for writing that. You are right in that my dad did not get the chance to go to university, and that he has wanted for many years for me to go, he's never really considered anything else. I too wanted to go to university for years, until I got there and problems began.

I also don't have a T, and methods I use to cope are not those I would recommend to others . I think he is so focussed on the fact that I am not going to get a degree, that he overlooks other things. And besides, he says that I brought the depression onto myself, which I agree that I did to some extent, but it's never actually shifted in over a year.

I never, ever, ever talk to him like he talks to me. I usually say nothing at all when he starts on at me, unless he wants an answer to something, and I usually reply 'don't know'. I know that this is no defence. But usually if I do have to start an argument I end up crying very easily, which I hate, so I try to avoid it.

And as for sitting down with a plan, I could do that but I am totally overwhelmed as to what I want to do in life now and I don't know if I could cope with a regular job anyway, and besides he would criticise whatever I wrote down...

I'm sorry that I am discounting so many of your suggestions but imo some of them just wouldn't work for me.

Jan, I have been looking up Ts in my area, haven't found anybody yet though, and I can always go through the NHS too...

SS, you say some valid things there, because I have been looking up volunteering in my area. These are only small towns though and I think I'd probably end up working in a charity shop or something, when I would really want to do something more worthwhile, perhaps related to mental health. I've also been trying to find support groups in my area for depression and self harm but I haven't been able to find anything. I suppose such things can only be found in cities.

Nothe, you made me smile when I read that!