Suddenly the thing I didnt want to say doesnt sound as bad now that other people have had the courage to really admit to things theyve done... I got into a fight with a relative who had just been beaten up by her boyfriend yet again, and I slapped her across the face, even with her black eye, and screamed so loud at her my throat was hurting even the next day, because she completely disregarded all the help she had been given. Of course she got back together with him immediately after. I dont just go around contradicting myself all the time, but growing up in a family where these relationships are the norm, theres only so much a person can take before the want to help disappears along with the empathy. I never thought the day would come where Id turn my back on someone in that situation, especially knowing the things I know about abuse and control, but that day did come. I completely contradicted everything I said that day, I was ready to rip her to pieces, even in the state she was in. But no matter what situation you are in and how much help you need, disrespect me and disregard the help I give you and the stress I get put under, and you wont get and sympathy.
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