I don't know if this was ever discussed before, and I don't know if there's just something wrong with me or if other people here can relate to this or not.

I'm almost 23 and I've never dated anyone before. I think that's probably considered strange to normal society (not that I am normal). I've had a few crushes here and there in the past. I confessed to one guy once in high school, but that didn't work out. I dunno if I'm envious of people who are in relationships; I'm usually just puzzled. I think I'm usually fine with being single, but I'm just afraid that if my lack of interest keeps up, I'll be alone forever... But when I really think about it, being a relationship doesn't seem natural to me. And actively seeking one seems even more unnatural to me(they don't screen for sex offenders on internet dating sites).

I'm not expecting anyone to love me, really. (Sorry I have low self esteem) I think I'm at that point where I just want someone reliable to support me and I'll be a good wife or whatever. Don't know if that's a messed up way of thinking... Maybe I'd be better off as a nun or something, heh