My mom is the most selfish individual I know. She's a total ***** who doesn't give a **** about anybody but herself. It makes me sick to look at her.
My mom broke up with my step dad after 10 years because she wasn't happy and had an affair. Which I understand, if your not happy then you shouldn't be with that person but you'd think after 10 years she'd be adult enough to sit him down and explain the circumstances. NO, she leaves without telling him. She packs her stuff, and some of my brothers,sisters and my things) and leaves. He comes home one day and everything is gone basically.

We move into an apartment on our own and she changes completely... She started leaving and staying out not bothering to come home until the afternoon the next day. She didn't bother to tell us where she was going, She started to turn off her phone so we couldn't reach her or see if she was okay. She'd leave the apartment and party with no food for us to eat.

She disappeared once for days, we were so scared something happened to her that we called the cops. She said she was leaving (it was a friday night) and that she'd be back in the morning. We didn't hear from her at all until monday. And when she did come home basically what she said was "no i'm not sorry because i'm not perfect so whatever".

A couple weeks later she told my siblings and i that she was moving in with her 'boyfriend' and that we had to move in with him. Keep in mind we don't know this guy, we literally never met him. I told her I didn't want to so she sent me to live with my aunt (who is my guardian angel, always has been).

So now because of her I don't get to see my bro and sis at all anymore. She's completely rubbed her hands clean of me. She doesn't call me, if i try to call her she won't pick up, she doesn't spend time with me anymore, she doesn't care how i'm doing, she just dumped me with my aunt and said whatever happens, happens with me.

I love her but I hate her. My aunt tries to encourage me and explain to me that she's a lost soul but I'm sorry, I can't accept any logical answer except that my mother is selfish and she didn't/doesn't love me enough to be a mother. Bottom line.

Sorry so long :-/