I don't think I was fair to myself in the entry above. I started this thread looking for support, and I can see I am already talking myself out of getting any.

I actually am a pretty nice person, or so I've been told often enough. That tends to lead to me getting drained by the attachments I make.

I am under-experienced socially, and can be very avoidant out of fear of not knowing what to say. Spontaneity doesn't come naturally to me. Also, sometimes I can be overly blunt and then very remorseful afterwords. When I was working, I did very well meeting the needs of people I took care of. It's weird that I was effective with people on the job and lost otherwise.

At any rate, I am extremely alone at present and it is horribly demoralizing. I do like people. But, I am afraid to approach them. Friends I made in the past have gotten separated from me by time and geography.

I relocated from where I grew up to a distant part of the country. Over time, that causes massive deterioration in family connection. I would have said it happened just because of faults I have, but I have seen it happen to a lot of people who move.

When I've asked family to please not forget about me, they say "Well, you're the one who moved." I never knew I was going to get this cut off. It's horrible.