...And your lack of will is PMS, plain and simple. Just kidding, but I KNOW there's some internal junk that just makes me feel like I'm chained to a chair for a week out of every month, so in some ways females are actually fortunate (how's that for mind-bending?) to be able to pin it on something. There is absolutely beyond a shadow of a doubt for me a physiological component to my frozen states, and it makes me impossible to live with, as people can it anything from manic to - who knows? They call it whatever they like in proportion to how it affects them. And it does take a toll on other people, but they don't always understand what's happening and they thus can lash out in the WORST ways. I am learning to protect myself about it, and carve out a domain for myself in which I have the ability to shut down and make up for it and not be scrutinized, and sometimes decimated by others about it. I can still interact, but I factor all this stuff in first - it's fundamental, and after cleaning the reactors out of my life, I realize how very very entitled I am to my process, whether it's as predictable as others' I've lived with in the past or not!
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