I am sorry to be such a drag........but it seems like there is no end to this pain. I am wondering if I should just stop seeing T because I am so far down that I feel like I am not responding well to therapy anymore......
My head is literally buzzing with anxiety and aches horribly; my throat feels tight. My chest hurts. I can't function at all. I feel like a horrible person and an even worse mother because I can hardly take care of my kids and can't fathom how I will do in the days and years ahead......I don't see how my current reality of thought/emotion is changing or will change. It has me seriously thinking, and maybe my thinking is totally screwed right how, but I am thinking it would be better for my kids if I gave them up to someone who can function better and will take care of them better!
This pain simply is not ending. I know, my T gave me the assignment to separate emotion from fact......but the thing is, this pain is fact right now to me. A fact that seems like it will always be. I wish something would take it away, change it, numb it, because I am miserable......
I don't know what to do, I want this pain to end now. Help!