I find I am falling back into denial, like I am working back to square one from where I was 3 years ago in admitting I am an abuse survivor. I have had a lot of really positive changes in my life recently, with moving, starting a new job, living with my boyfriend and finishing my associates degree and doing things to improve my health. In the midst of all this I find myself using it as a sugar coating to try and forget I was ever sexually abused as a child, to the point if I get triggered or if I try to start searching for therapist in the area I moved to, I find myself struggling with denial it happened. I start to tell myself I am a liar, that I must be wrong etc. It really scares me, and I am noticing that my anxiety is shooting up because of it and all the recent change in my life. I don't want to loose any progress I have made in accepting that I am a survivor and being able to talk about it. I still can't, it's like I am trying to repress it all again and using the positive changes in my life as an excuse to stuff it away. Has anyone dealt with this?