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Originally Posted by pachyderm
Could it be that you are afraid of getting swallowed up by them if they get too close? Something like that would be the case for me. You have a right to define how close people get.
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I honestly don't know. My mind has a way of playing tricks but I feel like my avoidance of my family is because I don't want them to know my struggles or want their support. I think support from them would make me uncomfortable and I'm not sure why. Do I care so much about them that I don't want them to hurt for me or do I really just not want them involved. I believe the latter but my family is close (parents still together, 2 siblings) so I'm not sure why I "think" I feel that way. I can't really trust anything in my head because I can't decipher what is actually true in regards to my feelings. I've spent years suppressing and pushing feeling away so I guess I'm a little blunted in that area. Who knows, may I'll figure it out?!
Thanks for your insight.