Interesting concept, once again !! This thread rocks. Maybe that is why I am a square peg trying to fit in a round hole. Could explain why people avoid me, they see I'm... different, not like .... them.... maybe not safe? It seems, over the years, people find a card to send to me that says I walk to the tune of a different drummer. I never thought of changing to disguise. Then there is the dissociative factor that I battle with, that takes away any element of fitting in.
I used to be defined by my career, that was who I was for 30+ years. When I became disabled, then I lost my sense of self and went afloat in a sea of uncertainty. So, I get your comment that you have no clue who you are.
Question for you............ what would happen to you if you didn't wear the different costumes for different people and events and would you be able to select your own costume that defines who you truly are?
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Originally Posted by *Defeated*
OMG, it's ironic that you say you are whoever you're expected to be. I was just telling my therapist the same thing. It's almost like I have different costumes to wear for different people/events. I can easily mold myself into the "appropriate" person to keep myself hidden. And obviously, this is a huge contributing factor to my feeling fake and like people are going to realize that I'm awful and not who I say I am. Well, hell - I don't even know who I am ...  |