I have some memories of abuse, mostly by my uncle who was physically abusive. I have internal reasons to strongly believe that there was CSA too with one of my mothers boyfriends and "less severe" SA with other boyfriends that I clearly remember....

Over holiday dinner one yer just before his son was born my uncle started bragging (yes, bragging) about what he did to me as a kid. Most of the family just sat there and stared at him, one person tried to change the subject... The clencher was that my grandmother got into a BIG ole fight with him telling HIM he never did any of it!!!!! He admitted to FAR more than I had remembered and validated the memories I had.

Then there was moms BF... in looking into things there I found that he did abuse his daughter and lost his teaching job for abusing students. I didn't know that when I had the feeling 'something' happened.

Be patient with yourself and trust yourself. One of the things I discovered as I worked was that because I wasn't accusing anyone outright or pressing charges it didn't matter. What mattered was my experience, how it impacted me today and honoring myself.