Hmmm Lonliness, it certainly does mean different things and the saying that "nobody cares" well it should really say "no one seems to really understand". And that saying often includes the person who is saying it. And I don't think therapy resistant should be used towards anyone. Additionally, I don't think that anyone should entertain that way of thinking themselves.

We are all unique and in that we are alone in our own lives and how we make our way though it. Our relationships with others are our own unique way of interating with others and we can never stop learning about ourselves by communicating with others. Each and every person will have failings in the ability to communicate with others and in that there will be some re-examing how a bad communication happened and what could have made it different. There will also be many times when each person will make efforts that will be futile and will often leave one feeling very alone in their own oppinions and thoughts.

It is not uncommon for someone to have ideas that may present a different way of doing an event, business, communicating, and so on that will only remain a seed in their mind that never gets to grow. And this occurance will increase when it involves the participation of others. And that is a reality of the fact that people do not like change and often prefer to stay in a system or structure of life that they know and feel comfortable in. The truth is seeing is believing and if people see something work and have time to experience that it does work than a change can take place.

One of the reasons why the idea of people starting their own business works is that if someone is strong enough to follow through with their own seed of an idea that seed can actually have a better chance to grow. But it is more than just having an idea, it is having the ability to truely take an idea and make it happen. And that is not something that everyone can accomplish. But it doesn't make them unworthy of that idea or the intelligence to have that idea. It is understandable that if an idea is not allowed to proceed one can consider the saying "no one cares". And something is born from that experience, ANGER and LACK OF SELF WORTH.

So it begins, the seed doesn't grow, only the Anger grows. Anger turned inward=Depression. But this can also result if the seed is allowed to grow and is somehow destroyed or ruined and the same result will happen=Anger.

I had a conversation with my T today and I talked about anger and depression.
I told him that when anger is present there must be some kind of chemical that prohibits all the other emotions from happening. And as I described my theory he was knodding his head and taking notes.

But I did talk about one thing that I found shattered anger, or whatever chemical block it had. I came across something said that completely caught me off guard.
I suddenly laughed and kept that thought of that phrase and the content in which it was used, it truely shattered all my anger at that moment, struck right through it like a hammer shattering glass. Laughter is good medicine.

I have to admit that right now I do feel very lonely. And I could easily say "no one cares" but I know that it is more that "no one understands". Except HERE at PC.
To truely understand depression and even ongoing anger and all that it entails, one has to feel it to understand how difficult it is.

My therapist has told me that I am suffering from depression. Although there are different kinds of depression and he is not sure exactly which kind I have. But it does have something to do with PTSD as well as a lot of built up anger. And I know my family doesn't understand and they are frustrated and so am I.

But I will keep in mind that little phrase I saw and how that really helped. I am going to work at it just like millions of other people do. And I know it may seem like I am alone,well, I am alone to work on trying to resolve it somehow. But we are all alone in whatever we do, it a part of being human.

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