I swear, its a sign. I've been stressing out on a planned vacation for a week or two; along with other things this past week. And now I'm told the vehicle is broke and is going to need more repair than we can afford... Answer to this is new car, whatever.
and I get the answer of ''we may still go on vacation, but still not sure''.. I can't accept this, yes or no now... I couldn't truly afford the vacation to begin with but it was my chance to meet part of his family, and basically the last trip before and elder passes due to they are really old, so I was willing to use my credit cards.... Sort of need to know now if going due to I have a crazy supervisor that won't be too understanding if I say I don't need the days off...

God damn it and the stress I've been through with planning this **** because he didn't want to talk to me.... But that sort of got resolved.

I feel like *****. I feel agitated, aggravated and numb at times. I'm disappointed. I'm mad. Sad. Feel like breaking something, but yet feel like going to sleep.

Grr I'm sorry for venting.

Just need to remember to breath, it'll be ok some how.

Now I got a head ache .... Lol, funny in a sick way...