Thanks so much for your input, Learning1 & Omers! I'm just so new to "getting help" that I don't know what to expect from T or myself in this process...

Very good point about the health insurance... I hadn't thought of that. My work pays for it, but I imagine if my premium goes up, they'll have yet another reason to justify trying to get rid of me. Without my job, I couldn't afford therapy, much less my alcohol...

LOL I'm still an angry drinker, but thanks to the tears from my newfound deep depression (due to old wounds being ripped opened in therapy), I just have no energy left to act out my aggressions. I guess it will get worse before it gets better, but I'll try to stick it out...