Preacher, thank you. That's very helpful to hear. Could you possibly tell me more, like in a PM, about your situation and how you managed it?
I didn't grow up with much either, so I have sort of fallen into the material trap in a sense, wanting to provide more for my kids than I had. And yet, I didn't necessarily think I lacked naturally as a kid, although I wished I could have more like my classmates did. However, I see now that no matter how hard things were for my parents, we did at least have the basics met - once my dad was out of work for 2 years and somehow my parents kept us fed and clothed. Yet, the thing is, I don't understand how they did it......nor do I understand how I could do it, nor do I feel that I am capable of living such a sacrificing life......part of my issue is that I don't want it to be so darn hard to do, because I don't feel capable of it. And right now, the truth is I am not......and if I don't get out of this black canyon soon, I may be so far down, I make it impossible for myself to ever be capable again.....