It's so hard, I know it isn't happening right now and that I got through it and survived it but it literally feels like it is actually physically happening to me all over again, I sent a 5 page text to my T but I haven't heard back from her. She probably went to bed. I feel scared and like puking and really little like a 3yr old and I want to be with my T right now. The flashbacks seem so vivid right now and I am remembering even more details from what happened; what I was wearing, what he was wearing, things that he said to me and threatened to do to me, and worse things that he did to me and made me do. I am hurting so bad right now and I want it to stop!