Thanks online_user.

I always talk to people working for things like suicide hotlines or who were counselors but aren't anymore. I mostly just cope on my own, getting myself through everyday somehow. I don't know how I do it really.

But now that I've given up self harm, my ED is my way of coping and more often than not I am stuck in a whirlwind of restricting, starving, weighing myself and generally doing everything I can to distract me from everything apart from my food intake. It's rubbish and I feel trapped.