Thank all of you for your responses & ideas.

I thought about asking for an add-on SSRI or SNRI, but I don't respond well to them. I'd get super irritated for no reason, or be argumentative, just lots of overall agression. I know that Wellbutrin is an atypical antidepressant, but I don't know why this one in particular has always worked so well for me. I feel kind of panicked that it might be losing efficacy.

I was seeing a therapist during the school year through my college's counseling program, but over the summer I'm on my own. I didn't feel like I had a great connection with her, but still it did help. But without insurance, I can't continue over the summer. There are some free programs in the area that I've accessed, but the wait times are months long. I don't have anyone else to talk to-as I mentioned, my family is harmful, and since I've spent the last few years in college where everyone is 18-22 yrs old to my 31, it has been difficult to find enough common ground to even spark a small conversation.

I'm not sure how to improve my situation. I have a little work, but not enough. I'm very frugal. I don't get enough child support for my oldest son, but that's always been the issue. My relationship is not abusive, and he isn't a bad person at all, however when I'm upset he has this knack for saying things that make it worse even though he's trying to help. I can't move out-I have one more year of school left, and I don't have anyone else I can go live with, and I can't maintain a place on my own. I know it sounds like I'm in this position because I made lots of bad decisions when I was younger, but having a family like mine, that is to say harmful at the least and downright abusive at its worst has left me with very options at key moments in my life.

I think that what's making me feel so bad is that I truly can't see any way to change my circumstances. I can only live them. I'm existing, not **Living** in the hopes that someday (and it's so difficult to think of the future "someday" when you're depressed) after I graduate things will be different. In the meantime, I'm powerless. I start most days trying to think of positives, but there are so few that I feel dejected by 9:30, and ready to crawl back in bed. It's so frustrating to intellectually know what's wrong with me, and options to fix it, but still be unable to effect any change in my mood.