you guys are so awesome. i know i need to give her a chance but it just feels so bad and humiliating.i feel like i am saying to her "OK so hear is everything bad about me and by the way don't hate me also.how can she not.when i am telling her how much i really hate people and don't want anything to do with them.she didn't seem to hate me .she said she will be here next week no holiday and smiled at me.i saw her.the only thing she said kind of loud and scary was to take my hands off my ears so i can hear what she is saying