You guys - it's SOOO weird. It's like baby steps, I tell you - learning to ignore the messages I've gotten from abusive people all of my life - well, first there's learning to avoid abusive people, and then there's learning to ignore what they've said and think in their absence. And as I give myself permission to do so, my strengths LITERALLY become un - ugh - i don't know - uncovered, unmasked - whatever. I'm not afraid of outshining anyone, of - I've had SO many jealous, devious, greedy people in my life - and Pachyderm, I like you too much to disagree with you about ANYTHING at this early stage! But I have lots of responses brewing to your question about whether evil exists. I've been conditioned to stay in the presence of and be controlled by people that I absolutely believe are evil, and steering clear of them is helping me to understand how the business world works, how and why governments are set up the way they are, why my ex failed in the business he basically muscled away from me, how I could borrow and invest and run a small business, how government works FOR me (all I could see is how it works against me (us) - traps us - spies on us - blah blah blah), and the extent of my understanding of the world was based on SO much resentment of the way the people I was surrounded by MISMANAGED their lives, their families, their jobs, etc. My worldview was COMPLETELY colored by the confines of my personal experience, and basically the social interactions I'd have boiled down to trying to enroll other people in my rage about how messed up the world is. I COULDN'T EVEN SEE THAT IT'S (not necessarily) MESSED UP! It's not PERFECT, and it's unfair to large groups of people, but I was such a radical hero that I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND - like I LITERALLY couldn't understand the business/govt/econ/news that was right in front of me and that will ASSIST me in assisting people. UGH. This is so complex, I don't expect anyone to follow it. I just cannot tell you how this website is affecting my life. It's allowing me - no, it's ENCOURAGING me - it's REWARDING me for working thru my junk. I just cannot believe it. I'm crying.