Thank you for sharing your story with me Theo. A lot has happened since I posted this. On July 5th I found out my boyfriend had been cheating on me with another woman since March. He was dating her and telling her he wanted to move in with her, that I was just his crazy ex gf who called him all the time to bother him. He used my gas money that was to take me to work to drive over to her house and be with her. He slept with her and I in the same day. He didn't ever use condoms. She caught him cheating on her with another woman.. When she found out about me she messaged me via facebook. It was a horrible way to find out. I do not know how many other woman he cheated on me with. I know he is not the right person for me, but I am still in love with him. In love with the person who I thought, who I wanted him to be. He will not return my things, childhood memories he is stealing from me. I don't really know what to do anymore. The last 3 years of my life have been horrible, I wish I could go back in time and make everything perfect. When do I get to have my happiness? Will it ever come?