thanks Cole

I nearly told him today....I sat on the sofa full of disgust and looked over at him so unknowing and it broke my heart....I couldn't stop crying and couldn't tell him. My dad called me and again I started crying and told him everything.......I just had to tell someone close to me and he was so very supportive and understanding and told me he loved me, is there for me and that I can do this. I am seeing my CPN tomorrow to try and work out a plan. Firstly, I need to go into counselling or something and then, when ready, go into therapy with my husband and tell him about everything that happened with me and ex t. And I agree....he will need his own therapy too...Oh God what have I done??? I thought about not telling him....but that isn't fair.....I owe it to him to be honest and he can decide whether or not he wants to stay with me. I just pray that he does....and I pray I haven't caused irreversible damage.

Thanks again Cole