Not to worry you dawnhopeful, but since you raised the issue that you have some issues in your marriage and he is a shrink and controlling............... just be careful. My husband chose to over medicate me (he was a controller) by adding more medication into my morning orange juice. I caught him opening my capsules and pouring them into my juice. I stopped letting him prepare my meals and hand me a plate too. Anything I consumed came from what I prepared and was brought fresh. I left nothing in the frig that might be tampered with. I rented a storage container and kept anything that might affect me locked up in there and in my safe deposit box in a bank <--that is where I stored my meds. Please know that I am not trying to scare you, but be prepared ahead of time before you make any changes because it might be threatening to him and he may try to defeat any of these efforts. I would keep everything confidential, do not let him know you are going off your meds, do not let your T or shrink consult with him, do not let him enter into therapy with you. Tear up the Hippa form that allows for your husband to receive information from your doctors. Be sure even your primary doctor does not get any information about you about your medication changes for now. Keep all this separate from him.

When I was deciding to end the marriage, I became very ill, and entered into altered states which was very bizaare. My shrink sent me to a forensic pathologist to have my blood checked to see if there were things that should not be in my blood, but nothing was found. It was only after I entered the women's shelter that all these scary symptoms stopped.

I thought my husband was being supportive by joining me in therapy. What he did was write down my buttons and learned my weaknesses and preyed upon me with this knowledge. He got copies of all my medical mental health notes and used these to blackmail me. He sent copies of my diagnoses to my job (ended my career), to my family of origin, to a public elected position I held (I was asked to step down) to my minister and just about anyone who wanted it. Then during the trial over the death of my mother, my sisters, who had a copy of my mental health documentation used that to maneuver around me from disclosing things that I needed to know by the attorneys. He used this knowledge to mute me, erase me from life, isolate me and then tried to destroy me.

This is an extreme situation and one which I hope never happens to you (((dawnhopeful))), I just wanted to give you some things to protect yourself with. There is a book that helped me tremendously, while living in the domestic violence women's shelter "The Gift of Fear" by Gavin DeBecker. I would highly recommend you read this at some point.