Hey Granite -
Sounds like you had a rough one today.
One time when i was with several Ts who were trying to calm me down, i told everyone in the room, that they were all effing crazy, they all sucked, and they could all eff themselves...they were the worst group of therapists ever and i couldn't believe that the state even allowed them to exist.
and then I ran out.
And they followed me and told me it was ok and asked me to come back.
It's not easy. this stuff is really hard.
And we make it even harder on ourselves.
i wish I had some magical way to make this easier for you, but all I can tell you is that you're not the only one.
Jadedmoonbeam