T's exist because people need help with the ugly stuff. No one else in society can deal with the ugly stuff like a T can. If ugly stuff did not happen, then we would not need any T's. A friend of mine once asked me not to talk of my childhood because he could not listen and handle the reality of my early years. It occurred to me that I was lucky to have had a T to sort these things out. Peace to you. I know T can really hard and painful, hang in there.