I've had bipolar I all my life i was misdiagnosed many times before getting diagnosed correctly. When i was a teen i had to spend time in a mental institution which nothing useful really came out of that other than i never want to go back and feel like i'm being jail for having a disorder that i don't have control over. The past few weeks have been really hard for me to just deal with my day. Today i had to leave work early because i just couldn't handle everything i was going through plus work. i feel better right now but i feel numb. I can't afford medication so i'm trying to work full time and go to school full time taking my bipolar with me every where i go without medication. I came here looking to see if anyone had any tips for managing bipolar disorder without medication. I also has PSTD which gives me paranoia every night most nights i'm scared to go to sleep so i don't have a regular sleep schedule but i've been trying to get on one that will work with my schedule. I just feel lost in the world right now