i was abused sexually physically emotionally and verbally for 10 by a guy that my mom was married to. I still get flash backs and paranoid that he will make good on his promise if i told the authorities. Lately my symptoms have been worse not only for PTSD but also my bipolar i don't know if they are connected in anyway. I honestly thing that my symptoms have gotten worse lately because i'm realizing that this man is no longer on probation so nothing is really holding him back from finding me. I haven't been able to sleep i've been having nightmare that i haven't had since i was a kid. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. But i don't allow myself to cry because i feel that it will only make matters worse by bringing up even more bad memories. Right now i'm at a loss i don't know what to do to just get through the day.