And even Walt Disney was - well, he wasn't actually lost, but there were certainly times when he felt like he was - and he had his entire business yanked out from under him by his DISTRIBUTOR! He had to start over from scratch. And he was an UTTER pioneer - he rented this TINY little space and set up six desks and just had his freinds come and animate for him and he hoped like **** it would work! S'wat Ah'm SAYYYYYIN', Sanada. I've been reading a lot about business success - especially for women - (forgive me if i'm sounding like a broken record but I'm telling you this stuff works ((or at least it's DELUDING me into feeling a LOT better ))) and my favorite author of late re: getting yourself out of that maze is Barbara Stanney - she has an incredible story - she lost everything - and started studying six figure women (this post is about money, but I think it applies to any area of life when one's stuck, really), and she interviewed oh - probably hundreds of them and her message boils down to the fact that they're just as scared of being frauds as anyone else - they just keep going. They don't let the fear stop them. It took me a LONG time to get this thru my head (because I was so SCARED! ) but once I got it - and I had to just WRITE her sentences over and over again - I was like: "Eek - I cannot BELIEVE how much better this feels than the trap I've been in." Oh, I really am afraid I'm starting to bore everyone. I'm going to try to stop preaching now (I think I'm PMS!). The point is that I'm sorry you're feeling lost Sanada. Life can be SO difficult.