hi soup, hope i can help. why not take a look at your SI. do you feel you need help re this? that is one need if your answer is yes. do you get depressed after you SI?..like getting upset you do it but feel you can't stop? that is another need. does distraction really help you not do it but only take up time before you SI again? if yes, that's another need.
suggestion-sit quietly and focus on how you feel. write down any thoughts you feel. your needs will probably be on that list.
another thought since you started this thread, you need support.