You're welcome.

Deep breathing is probably the easiest and best way to immediate relieve. I've spent two years in talk-therapy, learned TONS of information through textbooks on depression, anxiety, BPD, trauma etc. However, the emotional unrest doesn't go away with intellectual knowledge.

Basically I know my emotions are out of control at times. I'm not at peace with myself. Self-loathing pretty much takes up most of my day. I rage and wrack my brains daily trying to figure out who I am, what I want and what I'm able to do. Usually, my thoughts end up with me knocking the emotional crap out of myself - not helpful, very hurtful.

Meditation, deep breathing help you to: live in the moment, appreciate who you are and help you clear your mind of crap that just makes you feel bad.

I need to stop wishing I was someone else, doing something else. Hopefully, mediation will help.