Had a few good days going for me.
This morning though my thoughts are everywhere.
The Monster that lives inside of me is really pulling out all the stops this time.
Has me thinking that the good thoughts, the calming thoughts, the things I am doing to stay connected is all a deception to really bring me down.
I am angry, scared, and mostly feeling confused.
I hate the Monster. He bullies the Little and then upsets me because I feel helpless in protecting her.
God, I hate this!