It sounds like you're already doing a great job!!! You are concentrating on being yourself and being happy and you still maintain a nice and positive outlook. Hats off to you that you are able to do that.

I think you are beginning to see that those 'problems' early on in the relationship had nothing to do with you. They were his issues and not yours. I'm glad he realizes that and is taking responsibility for it.

I'm an optimist too and when I was away from my gf I always assumed we'd get back together....You may, you may not. Who knows for certain??? Who knows for certain anything??? I'd take everything day by day. It will all work out in the end for you (in whatever way that is). Yeah, I would be pissed at God too. I am a strong believer and I know the Lord has to put obstacles in our way to make us grow stronger....hey, if you are at all into Christian rock, go to youtube and watch the video by Laura Story called "Blessings." Sometimes our blessings come through raindrops, sometimes our mercies come through tears....sometimes it takes a thousand sleepless night to know that God is here.

Good luck, my friend.