BTW AC I just wanted to say thanks again for the support. No one thought I should stay with him going through that first year and a half, but I knew what a great person he is and I wasn't in any hurry to rush my life ahead anyway since I had just gotten divorced. Plus he was only 21 (I was 27) and I didn't want to push him. And thankfully I don't have a biological clock to worry about. I'm now 34 and have no plans to have children and risk passing down all the problems in my family's history. He doesn't want kids either, so we were a good match that way. I just needed to hear that I don't have to push him away either. It didn't feel right to me. I tried not contacting him the first few days and then I just didn't want to anymore because I missed my best friend and now we text every day. I'm just going to give him the space to do what needs to be done. And I constantly remind myself of the phrase "If you love somebody set them free. If they come back they're yours" or however it goes.