I feel like I've abandoned you all, now that i'm doing better. But the truth is, I'm too easily triggered, and I have too much to lose right now to risk falling back into the hole. I try to read the posts here and come up with a good reply. But I just can't. I need to stick with the none-mental health posts for right now. I hope you understand that. It's not that I was just taking advantage of your help and support while I needed it, it's just that I need to stay away from triggers for right now. I feel too fragile at this point.

Hopefully soon I will be able to contribute again, and please know that I'm thinking of all of you, hoping that the pain will stop for all of us.