(((arcangel))) - I know it's hard for some of us to open up here. Usually I enjoy supporting members but I do occasionally ask for support and it puts us in a vulnerable position, if we're not used to opening up. I also think some men struggle with opening up and being vulnerable because they think they have to appear strong at all costs. The problem is, men have the same feelings and you/they need outlets too.

To start -how long have you struggled with depression? For men it can be a particularly huge blow to suffer financially and lose ones job and home. It's safe to say most mens feelings of self worth is tied to what they do and what they have unfortunately. This bad economy had ripped many peoples lives apart, including my family.

Have you had a good physical lately? If not you should get one, including blood tests and ask them to test hormone levels and vitamin D. Men do get a drop in testosterone as they age and vitamin D plays a huge role in emotional and physical health. I recommend buying a liquid Vitamin D -all you need is a couple drops a day. I started this a month ago and I feel better physically already. Many people have low vitamin D levels.

Since you love fixing cars, I think you should look for jobs doing that, but you should also take any job for now, even if it's out of your field. Keep up with the exercise, preferably add some weight lifting. When our muscles feel strong we feel strong mentally. All I know is, I'm so against suicide - I lost my brother 3 yrs ago. As we get older we have to work harder to keep our physical health. I know anxiety's tough but you can't let it hold you back. I had it alot when I was younger. Consult with your doctor and learn some coping techniques like slow breathing etc. I'm glad you posted here and everyone can relate to how you feel.