(((eskie))) it aches my heart to read all this, and believe you have shared much of this with us at Psychcentral as it has happened... the sad part is there often is no answer for things in the past. It's difficult to have patience with something that doesn't work right when you seem to have no other choices.

Do the people in your life realize what is happening and how powerless you feel to fight it? Someone needs to get on the ball and advocate for you! I know how frustrating it is to try and do all this alone. I can't imagine having other people around, who don't seem to help.

It does seem overwhelming. First I would verify that that's what your psychologist said. Then I would make a list-because you can't do everything at once-and work on one item, either the easiest or the most important.

Maybe, a social worker at the hospital can help you pick through your list and to delegate?

((((((hugs))))) I'm at a loss right now. I'm sorry.