Since I finished school I've noticed that things that didn't used to bother me are starting to freak me out. I've always been shy but social situations in particular are really starting to get to me. Some of them are really simple, like I get flustered ordering a coffee, or I get so nervous going into grocery stores that I race around them in order to get out as fast as I can. I'm scared to check my email or answer the phone because I'm sure there's bad news waiting for me at the other end. I don't even know what I'm afraid of, exactly. I have incredibly low self-esteem and I just feel like wherever I go, I don't belong. It's like I'm always on guard, waiting for the world to attack me.

I was diagnosed with depression almost four years ago, and I've been in treatment ever since. There was occasionally a fair amount of anxiety associated with that but it wasn't like this, although to be honest I'm pretty sure I was just too tired to feel anxious most of the time. Whatever is going on now is different. It's making it difficult to go about my day-to-day life.

I don't really know what I'm looking for here. I just kind of wanted to acknowledge that there's something wrong.