Thanks Widget,

I have been taking my meds for 8 months and recently I have started refusing them. I take them cause I have to not cause I want to like we all do. But even that is effort. I am worried as they said they would try me on Lithium maybe as I am having some side effects from the Depakote. My GP said on Monday to talk to CPN next week and Psych start of August and ask them to either lower my dosage or change my med.

I sleep all the time and when I am not sleeping I feel shattered. But then when it comes to bedtime I am wide awake and alert and refusing sleep. Structure has gone from my life.

At the moment I am sitting having a drink of alcohol as it's numbing it all thankfully. I just don't know what I should do anymore