Hi, Defeated!

While I don't haven't received an official diagnosis of whatever disorder plagues me, I can definitely understand your body issues & alcohol dependence. I, too, have been struggling with drastic cuts to caloric intake (I only allow myself about 500 calories in food per day) to compensate for the alcohol calories. I've seen that behavior elsewhere termed as "drunkorexic".

This is probably the worst advice ever, but vodka has the least calories. If you're drinking beer and/or cocktails heavily, they will likely fail to compensate for less food calories at all - adding to the vicious cycle of binging on food. I either mix vodka with OJ (never soda) or sip on 90 proof peppermint schnapps - with a glass of water on the side.

Also, if you drink slower, you're not as apt to get the munchies to maintain consciousness. Only threw all this in because I know that I'd be a little happier (and drink less) if I could at least shed a few of my extra pounds - thinking you might feel the same?

FYI, at my first appt with my T, she asked why I drink & I said "got an hour?!" I drink to relax, I drink to sleep, I drink when I'm angry, I drink to have fun, I drink just to take the edge off (and, yes, also before/after my T appts), I drink when I've had a bad day to console myself, I drink when I've had a good day to celebrate, etc...

I, too, don't want to stop drinking, so my "diagnosis" has been delayed. I do, however, want to drink less... at least to a point where my therapy can be more helpful for me.

Anyway, my apologies if this is unwanted advice - or altogether bad advice... I wish you the best with your struggle and hope you find the answers you need.

Salmacis