Oh ((((((((Sanada))))))) sorry you are having a difficult day or that you feel confused.

The truth is that the only one you can control is yourself. You can voice your opinion and you can try to help others. But the only real control you are going to have is your own sense of well being. There are always going to be things about the world and the people in it that are going to be upsetting. And those situations are going to remind you how little control you have. But you are not alone in that feeling. Everyone struggles with that in their own way. And your right, PC are full of people who have one issue or another that has something related to control.

So I have to say that some of what you feel is probably normal. And there is no real normal, everyone has an issue, it is called being human.

You have to start by being kind to yourself and learn how to love and accept yourself. And many of the people here at PC are trying to do just that. That is where you begin. And for some people, that is a life time effort. And the truth is that we are all unique and yes there are people who have certain labels that have similar issues and it is nice to know that we are not alone with whatever is not perfect in us.

And you have to know your limitations too Sanada. No one person can solve the worlds problems. The best way to work at that is to focus in a small area that you can find a way to reach out. If everyone did that we would be much better off.
Even if all one can do is come to PC and reach out to help others, it still makes a difference. If something I say to you makes you feel better in anyway, than I have made a small difference in someone today. Just as if others that are posting today make a difference to another in their path, than that is good too.

I actually was having a bad day today myself. I was struggling and then I got some PMs that really, really helped. But had I never made any effort to begin with, than no one including me would have been helped.

Just keep trying Sanada. Your not going to have everything you want, no one does.
But you have a good heart and you deserve to take time to find more comfort in yourself. If that means that you need to go to the hospital than do what you need for yourself. We are here when you need someone to listen.

And Secretum is right. If you have problems that really interfere with your everyday life as she describes than there is nothing wrong with seeking guidance from a therapist.

Open Eyes