Salmacis,

I'm just wondering if you may be my long lost identical twin or maybe we were part of some sort of cloning experiment that we may not know about.

I understand completely your reasoning for drinking, what causes it, why it continues, why you start again, why it helps, blah blah blah. I GET IT!!

Thank you, but I don't need any tips on "making it work." I need tips on "being okay with it NOT working." I appreciate the advice though. I want someone who can tell me it will be okay, that I will beat the beast, that I can live my life at any size and be satisfied with it, that I can have a truly intimate relationship without freaking out, obsessing about food, diet, exercise, my failures ...

Sorry, I'm just frustrated in general. I hope no one has taken offense to anything I've said or felt it was directed at them. Truly.