just have to ask this question...
because im so afraid of falling in love with someone and then having nasty sex with them.

why do i feel like i have to hide it?
there are two sides to my sexuality.
the side that wants to just have raunchy fun and then the other side that wants to fall in love

im pretty young, is it naive? i would be humiliated if someone i loved a LOT had dirty raunchy sex with me.

WHY? i know it doesn't make sense , but thinking about it unnerves me. i've never got to have sex with someone i really loved sadly i can only imagine and when i think about it i shudder. i dont know what to do.

why am i like this?