*looks for the me-too emoticon*

Renee', you're neither a loser or a freak. Or we both are. Either way, pleasure to meet you! /hugs

39 biological male with feminine tendencies here, and ZydratePrincess, you're not old! My story begins in childhood, goes on hiatus, and returns about two years ago. I've been happily married for years now and my wife was also initially supportive, but isn't so thrilled now.

My depression stems not from our relationship, which is mostly wonderful, fun, fulfilling, and yes, sexy. I have no problems with my feelings for her. But at the same time, we both know I'm essentially transgender. Not full MtoF, but I definitely agree with your comment Renee' about the hair and gorilla thing. I'm a bit girly on the outside and if I could get a little more acceptance, I'd be a lot girly.

The depression is more along Marie's list of outcomes and challenges. I want to balance what I feel on the inside with the realities of living in a white collar world, raising three children, with lots of nearby in-laws. Who look at me funny for my long hair, styled nails and scented lotions but haven't gone so far as to confront me. If I had my way fashion-wise, it'd only be a matter of seconds before our expanded Facebook network was on fire with the gossip ^^

My goal in coming here is to find out if anyone else can speak to finding that balance. My dream isn't as ambitious as yours, Renee' and ZydratePrincess, but it's *my* dream. I want to continue sewing, to the point of being able to crossplay. I want to accessorize. I want to comment on fashion and decor without fear.

I also want to offer my support to anyone else, for anything else really. Most of my life I've been a bit of a counselor, listening to all sorts of issues from a variety of people and offering the best advice I can. I'm very interested in joining IMAlive, but I don't have the course fee or the time at the moment. Soon, I hope!

So, as I head to bed, I offer you all thanks for listening, and for the support given above. Awesome! Pleasant dreams and peaceful sleep!