Thanks for the support, everyone. I know this will pass....but I also know it takes energy to climb out....energy that I simply don't have right now. T will say that I need to create it....I don't have the energy to create it. I really, really don't. I just realized that I haven't spoken a single word in over 24 hours. I feel soooo silent. I don't even want to see T tomorrow....I hate feeling like I'm letting him down...or being pushed....If he feels that I am in danger of hurting myself, I'm afraid he will threaten to leave me like he did the last time.....I feel so lost in life right now. Sorry for being such a downer....It's just where I am right now....