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Jul 14, 2011, 01:31 AM
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Member Since: Jul 2011
Posts: 36
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Originally Posted by Sanada
Its my birthday coming up.
My best friend thought it would not ruin my birthday by commiting suicide on my birthday. (29.7. 1970). or sui= (5.8.2002).
So he waited till 1 weeek after my birthday to do it.
What do i do, it haunts me like a ghost.
If any wants more on this post, look @ 'Trigger warning R.I.P', in grief and loss.
He thought it would not ruin my (never mind), birthday, but my life. I hold extreem politics of sui, there being so many in my life.
What, what anybody.................telll me what do i think.....Coward....cheat.....sinner........dropout...
I'm the one left holding the keys.
Help please.
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Sanada,
Not sure what August has for season change where you are at. I would venture to guess that it may bring some colors to the foilage, a briskness in the air, and maybe even some wind, that you might find yourself turning your back to, if not to just bear the sudden chill.
As like the changing of the seasons?,we have no control. Except to adjust the thermostat, and bring what comfort to ourselfs we find managable.
So very sorry for the losses that bring you such grief.
But you Sanada?, { I should not express this, for it may come off wrong }, But You Sanada, can light those candles on Your Birthday cake, in both memory, and like the changing of the seasons, where something ends, another season brings all anew.
And what those "keys" represent symbolically, may just, in time, turn a lock {in your heart?} and allow you to walk free from the every day thoughts that make this pain at the moment seem unending.
Se
Specialeffects.
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