Hi Siljie - sorry you are having to face such a difficult time right now, good that you have a T.

I don't know about the details of the abuse you suffered and I am guessing that you reported it? It seems pretty unfair that you are going to have to face the person again, I can imagine that does bring up all sorts of ifs and buts.

Again assuming that you reported the abuser, is the college not going to do anything to support you? If I had been bitten by a Lion I would be really wary of going near it again, even if I had the most fantastic mental tools to deal with my anxiety, so I think in some ways it seems really normal for you to be feeling nervous about being near to this person again.