Congrats on making it a week without her!!! Its normal to have all those fears, when your T is leaving specially when she hasn't left before. If you do stay sane and sober without her, then that means you can did it but it doesn't mean you don't need her still. It just means you have learned enough to keep yourself together while she was gone. It doesn't mean that you don't have depression or a problem with drinking. It just means your improving. I think you will be fine without her, even if you do drink at least she will be back soon but I faith in you that you will do just fine without her. She'll back soon!!! Think positive thoughts and take care!!