I told my mom today.
she said as soon as I find a job she'll give me whatever start up money i need to leave immediately.
She did say I could come now but I won't leave my cats. i'm also going to start packing what i can that he won't notice and bring it to her house so it will be easier later.
I have a second interview tomorrow for one company and another one on tuesday for another company. I am crossing my fingers that I will have a job by the end of the month.

I know some of you out there don't agree with me staying here right now but every story is different, every situation is different. Please don't judge me, please don't lecture me - if I wanted that I could get that IRL. i'm 41 years old and college educated. I'm doing my best to follow my plan. i'm under a doctor and therapist's care and I have friends and family who love me. I come here for added support and if i'm going to get yelled at I won't bother posting anymore.